akiichick

So today I am an official Norman North student. So long Deer Creek!

Well, I'm 3 credits shy being a senior. Yeah, that's right. Scary huh? Tommorow I'm getting my schedule. I was supposed to get it today, but time ran out. I think I'll get to take Physioanatomy, creative writing 2, psychology, plus all the normal junk. But it's kinda exciting. School starts the 22nd (1 day after my birthday!!!)The school is HUGE.O and we have to wear id cards around our necks.Oy.

O and lastnight I wrote a very strange poem while listening to Bright Eyes. These past weeks I've become obsessed with them. I know I'm weird.

Um... Thsi post is to Leckie:

Go to music.yahoo.com and look up the video for 'I Caught Fire.'


To everyone else....Hi

Okay so I've had the net for about a week and now it's gonna be gone tomorrow. The dudes gave my moms computer back to her. So now, they have to take mine. Yay!....not so much. Umm...hope everyones summer is going well. Have fun.

Oh and I've met some of the people down here. They're all real nice. Yeah...thought I should include that. Anyway...

Let me know that I've done wrong
When I've known this all along
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't want to play
You are, the only one that needs to know

(Chorus)
I'll keep you my dirty little secret (dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone,
Or you'll be just another regret (just another regret, I hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Who has to know...

When we live such fragile lives
It's the best way we survive
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't want to play
You are, the only one that needs to know

(Chorus)
I'll keep you my dirty little secret (dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone,
Or you'll be just another regret (just another regret, I hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Who has to know...

The way she feels inside (inside)
Those thoughts I can't deny (deny)
These sleeping dogs won't lie (won't lie)
And now I tried to but it's eating me apart
Trace this nightmare

I'll keep you my dirty little secret (dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone,
Or you'll be just another regret (just another regret)

I'll keep you my dirty little secret (dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone,
Or you'll be just another regret (just another regret, I hope that you can keep it)
my dirty little secret
dirty little secret,
dirty little secret,
who has to know,
who has to know...

Right now I'm at my old apartments using the office computer.I'm at the office in OKC because my Mom had to go to the doctor.And now I'm spending the night with Jennifer.

SO I'm at the apartments handing out stuuf about the pool when I come upon my old home. I almost strated crying, I just wanted to go in and plop down on my bed and sleep. Not that my bed,or anything we own is in there...Over this past school year, I've gained so many friends. ANd it makes me happy. But apparently none (minus Leckie and Vi) are close enough to me to even call. I mean how hard is it to fucking call me? I put my # in everyones yearbook I cared about.

I just want to stay here. I just want to be here with all my friends and havfe a great summer... instead I'm in Norman alone.

On to better things... I wrote my first poem. It's a kind-of love poem. Not necessarily love just... great memories with a guy I care about...I'll write back later...

Okay am back...I have alot I want to post on...but it's all saved on computer at home. Darn.I think I might just post 3 poems I wrote. Prolly won't but it's fun to think about.

ANd on a more serious note:

I want you to tell me something...
Have I changed since last summer...?


ANyway I should prolly go...

I hope you all have a really great summer and god summer.

Sorry haven't been on for a while...grounded ah...here something funny...

Your Homicidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn
Your name:
Weapon of Choice:	Your dashing good looks
Your Favorite Target:	Elderly men
Your Kill Count:	1,485,495,228
Your Battle Cry:	"Yo mama!"
Years You Spend in Jail:	37
How Much Money In Damages You Cause:	$181,287,398,744,954
Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 29%
Quiz created with MemeGen!

Mom came home and nformed me of something just nice...(twas sarcasm)

Dear old Brenda called mom up today, telling her that they have rented the apartment!And it would be greatly appreciated if we could get our keys up to the office by May 31. So mom had to move the closing date on the house up to May 20. A week earlier. So now IM PISSED. Mom cryed earlier and I teared up and cryed. DAMMIT! I mean I know I'll be living only an hour away, and it's no big deal.

BUT FUCK THIS!!!!!!


Sorry I have to vent otherwise I'd blow up!And yes that would be amusing...

Umm... I think a lot of people should call me about the ALL AMERICAN REJECTS/HELLOGOODBYE CONCERT so we all could go.

I'm tired....I desperately want to throw an inanimate object and watch it break against a wall.


I think I'm better.


...No I'm not.

But I'm gonna quit.

I'm grounded

QUiz! answer the following Q's a/b yourself!

.: x Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. Write down the 2nd- 5th words:"It had its own unmistakable, yucky texture"
.: x Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? a wall
.: x What is the last thing you watched on TV? Malcolm in the Middle (walking thru while Seans watching it)
.: x Without looking, guess what time it is: 6:07
.: x Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 6:06 lol!
.: x With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? Bright Eyes
.: x When did you last step outside? About 30 min ago.
.: x Before you came to this website [started this survey], what did you look at? The computer
.: x What are you wearing? clothes....just like I always do
.: x Did you dream last night? I can't rememeber
.: x When did you last laugh? About 30 min ago.
.: x What is on the walls of the room you are in? A picture of asaint, a poster for Strata and 2 Artpainting/pastels
.: x Seen anything weird lately? not that I can remember
.: x What is the last film you saw? I don't know nor care
.: x If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? A.....house On the East coast
.: x Tell me something about you that I don't know: I'm vulnerable. And scared.Very scared.
.: x If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? I would be afraid to....but prolly world peace...what can I say I'm a hippie
.: x Do you like to dance? yup
.: x George Bush: is a lot better than Kerry, and is our prez.
.: x Do you want to have kids? YES!!!
.: x Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Amy Sarah or whatever we decide
.: x Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? Nick something..or whatever we decide
.: x Would you ever consider living abroad? Yeah.
.: x What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates? I'd want him to say whatevers necessary
.: x What is your favorite color? red.
.: x What do you want to be when you grow up? A writer, or soemthing with science
.: x Do you like mashed potatoes? sure
.: x If you could go back in time and change things, what would you do? Convince Mom to buy a house in Deer Creek schools
.: x What are you looking forward to? All American Rejects concert
.: x What are you thinking about right now? These questions.
.: x When is your b-day? August 21st.
.: x Do you have a job? nope
.: x Are you worrying about something right now? A lot.
.: x If you could change one thing that happened today, what would it be? crying.
.: x What are you going to do once you end this quiz? post it.

TBS- ...Slowdance On The Inside



Passed out in our school clothes so we'd wake up in our Sunday's best
I never asked for your opinion, I just got it and I get it
You move slow like daytime drama
And I'm boring like his songs
So while I'm taking you for granted
We'll be humming along

Well cross my heart and hope to...
I'm lying just to keep you here
So reckless (so reckless), so,
So thoughtless (so thoughtless)
So careless, I could care less

Well cross my heart and hope to...
I'm lying just to keep you here
(So reckless)
Well she's so heartless,
And I could care less

So paint your face up something elegant
And this town maybe a darker shade of red
Cause a long night means a fist fight
Against your pillow and my pearly whites
I want to hear you scream you like me better on my knees
So let us pray
(we don't believe in second chances)
So let us pray

Don't you ask me
Don't you move (anywhere)

Cross my heart and hope to
I'm lying just to keep you here
So reckless (so reckless), so,
So thoughtless (so thoughtless)
So careless, I could care less

Well Cross my heart and hope to
I'm lying just to keep you here
(So reckless)
Well she's so heartless
And I could care less

Well cross my heart and hope to
I'm lying just to keep you here (I'll keep you here, I'll keep you here)

One of us never did it but we're taking it all.
And tell me why you never promised that you wanted it all.
And her eyes never batted when she said it
It's a long night, open, know it...

This glass house is burning down (open all night, know it...)
You light the match, I'll stick around (open all night, know it...)
I'll give you everything you want (open all night, know it...)
And wish the worst of what I was (open all night, know it...)

This glass house is burning down (open all night, know it...)
You light the match, I'll stick around (open all night, know it...)
I'll give you everything you want (open all night, know it...)
And wish the worst of what I was (open all night, know it...)

Tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Well tonight won't make a difference
Well tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Well tonight won't make a difference

Mall with Vi was fun.
Then I got grounded.
I prolly am burnt.
O and I'm sick.

Todays just dandy!

Okay.
It's true: I'm moving. Exciting? Umm...sure. I'm gonna be in Norman.Yea yea I know it's still in Oklahoma, but I'm gonna whine! So there. Umm...I may get to hang out with Monte more cuz he'll be in college down there.That's cool.
I wanted to go to the Soccer game tonight. Am I there? Nope. Ah well...It's okay I'll just ask someone tommorrow to tell me how it went.

I feel like sitting outside and talking to someone for hours. That's strange.
Anyone wanna chat?...okay then.

I have a xanga. I should (steal Leckie's word and say) 'Spiff' it up a little.

Question:
Is Tiffany coming down to Oklahoma?Cuz I'm confused.

Guy from biology tried to convince me he read my journal. And there is VERY personal information about stuff in there. So, I almost cried. Thanks kid.

Okay there! I have updated.I feel completely and totally special now.

Heh..

Just came back from th eboys and girls soccer game.

Things not to scream:
Thats too gay for me...
People gave me interesting looks.
There was something else, but I forgot.

Umm...twas fun.
ANd I'm trying to unwind.

Nobody I know got normal hours of sleep. Like Bri got none. Mom got 3.ANd yeah.

Am bored.

Somebody call me on my home phone.

Please.

We were sposed to sign a contract for a house on Friday.
WE didn't.
thsi is the 2nd time our house signing contract has fallen thru.
YAY!
I'm done

whooooooooooooooooooooooo.....

I am better. No more bullshitting I feel o so much better.
Sure today may be damned to hell but I'm okay right now...

But if you see me in the hal at school or in class PLEASE don't hit me....
People keep play fighting with me...and this week is too stressful some things are okay but Monday i got hit in the eye, the nose elbowed in the face, and kicked (several times)


Gonna work on English now.

GOSH FUCKING DAMNIT MOTHERFUCKING ASSHOLES KILL THOSE GOSHDAMNED FUCKING DUMBASS MONKEYS AND FUCK ALL THIS CRAZY FUCKING BULLSHIT!

Sorry I am spazzing 300 point English research paper that is due Friday and I really have'nt started it!I am soooo screwed, If i fail this paper I WILL FAIL THE CLASS.

There's also a Math test on Friday. I can't study cuz I have to do my FUCKING research paper.

Sorry to Jordan: I've been a bitch to him, but here lately hes really been pissing me off.

O and my purse was left on the FUCKING bus.

Sorry about all the cursing....


Holy fuck! I am gonna leave a lyric or two for ya!

STRAYLIGHT RUN-'Sympathy for the Martyr'
"A laundry list of problems doesn't make you interesting,
Never getting help doesn't make you brave,
Not listening to reason to reason doesn't mean that you have faith."

O boy o boy....
Once again I'm off to Arkansas to spend another week with my grandparents....Don't get me wrong I love them,its just that I have lost touch with all but one friend(if I even have one)and going back there just makes me sad.On the plus side is Methlab city(the area is) so yay I can get hooked on drugs that'll kill me!Umm..NO!Sorry not into that kinda stuff...

I accidently gave Leckie my The Used burnt cd(first one),so hopefully mom will let me burn another copy.
Oh I went to Hot Topic today!
Bought:
~The Used poster that Iv'e wanted forever!
~My mom a Happy Bunny notepad that said "I'm not mean You're just a siisy"...lol
~sparkly eyeliner(They roped me into it..lol)
~o and...a bracelet
It was the first time I had exact change!

Okay will go now

I did it...I ummm.... sent in My Crimson Beauty to a magazine.

Mrs.Hau said she thought it was one of my best.

I am so excited...o and i don't care who knows... call me a bad friend(you know who) or what ever.

I'm confident in myself right now.I'm soo tired of being tied down to stupid sh!t that I forgot how good it is to live. Oh but I fully remember now. ANd I can't go back to all that stuff...I loathe high school drama.

But now some of it is gone...This spring break will be a tid bit lonely....Maybe some of my friends on lj will get together for a movie??

I can't find 75 of my dollars.....I am soo mad.I hope I can find it cuz I'll prolly BUY the first THE USED cd. Cuz I think since I'm not going to their concert I should support em. Oh and may buy a few posters and mischellaneous items from a website...(i won't name) and yeah....
I hope my family get the house we looked at in Norman tis $121,000+ not that bad. HUGE! mom and I would have huge rooms....I can see the possibilties...
It has
3 bed.
2 and 1/2 bath
1 living
1 dining
1 kitchen...
a back yard....
I'd be sooo happy the house is adorable....much better than the Ideal Homes.....they tried to screw us over.. DUMMIES... but my hopes are up so we prlly won't buy it.... oH well

I hope I can watch the rock countdown tonight!! Don't ask.....

One of my poems is in one of the packets for creative writing.

okay i'm coming down off my hyper-ness.....

talk to ya later....

Oh please support my man (not really, I'm just a fan...) Alex Pardee....he did ALL the album art for the cd : In Love And Death. He's a cool dude. Really cool/interesting art....BUNNYWITH!!!!!!

O.o I want to say support I play with knives too.....Alex (see above) is on that site... lots of really cool/interesting art.
SO check out:
ART stuff:
eyesuckink.com
playwithknives.com/index1.htm
rockamerica.com/news/news.htm
BANDS:
stratadirect.com -Strata
crosssfadeonline.com -Crossfade (for thos who don't know em they play "Cold")
tasteofchaos.com -o so many cool bands are on the tour
submersed.com/index.asp -submersed
theused.net



There are quite a few I didn't name.....just so many...Be Back Later